This is a question I am asking myself a lot lately. I am, officially, stuck in an employment rut. I have a job, it (barely, maybe not really) pays the bills. I had, once upon a time, hope that this field would provide me with a career path and to that end I enrolled in a Masters degree to further myself.
McBean has derailed me. Well, more to the point, going through TTC and pregnancy and the first year of McBean’s life has made me reevaluate what I want and what I am willing to put up with in my employment life – and where I’m at and where I’m currently heading doesn’t cut it.
Alright then, that being said, what do I want? Good question, and one I don’t have an answer for yet.
I am a little jealous of Clark really. She’s spent the last few (many) years working towards a particular career goal, and now she’s reached that qualification and has enough experience to know that yes, this is really what she wants to be doing, and now it’s just a matter of her finding a suitable position. Which is taking a little while much to her frustration, but will eventually happen and when it does we know that she’ll love what she’s doing and be happy doing it.
It’s amazing and awesome that she’s found this in her life. I absolutely couldn’t be happier for her. And I’m very glad that one of us has got to that point. It merely serves to highlight the listless and unfocused state I find myself in.
WTF am I going to do with myself?
If we had all the money in the world, as the saying goes, there are plenty of things I’d like to try. But alas reality rears its ugly head and I am stumped with what I can do given our current and very limited circumstances. There are not really a lot of lucrative careers for antisocial smartasses who don’t play well with others and have no qualifications in anything. Well, maybe politics. But you need to have money for that to begin with. And absolutely no morals and/or ethics, or a willingness to disregard said morals and/or ethics.
Unfortunately I am a principled antisocial smartass. Uh oh.
I won’t bore you with a wish list of things I would like to be doing. Conceptually I’d like to be in a field which is beneficial to both our bank balance and to society/the world at large. And that I can work by myself. Don’t like my chances.
